I am tired of character deffects. Tired of lugging them around like a recovery badge of honor. Can't I just be human? Human with faults, in acceptance of them. Not trying to remove them all. Not asking anyone or anyTHING to take them from me. Just saying, "Guess what? I'm not perfect, but I'm...

Have to go chair a meeting in 45 minutes and still don't know what the crap to talk about. I hate it when people ask me in advance and I have to think about for days before I do it. It always makes me lose my mind. I was thinking....relationships, perhaps? I mean, that's mostly what recovery is...

I finally have been able to go to a meeting. I didn't want to go. I wanted to quit recovery. I didn't want to relapse, I just didn't want to deal with people anymore. I'm so glad I went though. It was what I needed. Even though my depression isn't totally lifted, I got a new perspective on things....